Chubbs is sick, its pouring down rain and my tire is popped. Stuck on the side of the road for an hour. My brothers baby mama shows up and I cant help but feel anger. I’m tired.

My back aches from the three car accidents and sleeping on broken mattresses and the floor.

He’s coughing and I can’t do shit.

I’m pissed!

I write his father to let him know he cant take him outside if hes going to bring him back sick. I’m fucking fed up. This isnt the first time but it better be the fucking last.

My son is autistic and has bronchitis. Talk about a horrible day. He’s screaming in the waiting room so to calm him down I have to walk with him outside under the covering for 45 minutes. Back and forth, back and forth. He’s doing that yelling thing that autistic kids do. Its getting annoying but as a mom, I cant say that shit to him. I cant say it to anyone. I just have to sit and deal with it.

I’m alone. Like my family is here, but I have no companion, no man to lean on. I’m taking time off work that I cant afford. I’m stressed, tired. I cant do this anymore…I just want to sit and cry, but that doesnt ever lead to me feeling better, it just gives me a headache.

She yells at me because I cant afford groceries last week. She yells that the kitchen isnt fucking clean…but…shit I cant even say back because she’ll threaten me and my son with homelessness…life’s a bitch

I’m drowning in debt. My job offers no pay raise for my work. There is no incentive other than “work experience”. Yesterday my co-worker has to deal with one student in financial aid and I get stuck with a neurotic 61 year old lady, who alerts the fucking campus security because her ass is hollering so loud. Then 3 people show up to get information on coming to school and in the back of my mind I want everyone to leave me the fuck alone.

I’m paying on an eviction that now requires that I seek out an attorney. That attorney is going to cost me a fucking pretty penny. But no one cares. I’m just fucking stuck. FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

God is a real asshole today. Why me? “YOU’RE A CRUEL AND SICK FUCK!” I want to scream in His face. All I wanted to do today was drop my son off for school. Go to work to complete a project. And then go cuddle up with a guy that I like for like a good two hours. No sex…I’m not ready for that yet…I was just trying to have a chill ass day.

Chubby is coughing again and I realize how lucky I am to have a live child. I dont regret having him. I dont regret going to college. I dont regret the life experiences I’ve had that have made me strong. I’m crying now…because life is so unfair…but I’d rather be here then where I was…the tears have ceased. Them two did me well

If there’s a God, karma or good vibes. I could use them right about now…Today Fucking sucks

present- Vhonda

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